You don't feel pretty, you just feel used

I haven’t updated this thing in forever! I actually forgot about it. But I got an email saying someone started following me so I came here and I actually have four followers. The road to internet stardom is a long and lonely one.I guess in order to be noticed you must first have something worth noticing.

So I am really good at being honest, and laying all of my cards on the table. Both are very annoying and sometimes (probably all the time) very unattractive. Especially in women. I can understand that. In fact, I can see why it is unattractive. I just really don’t like to hold things back, I believe in honesty and honesty isn’t always what people want to hear. So if you are looking for someone to lie to you, I’m not who you want. I am nicely honest though. I try to never be rude or hurtful but sometimes being hurtful is inevitable. Sometimes the truth hurts.

Honesty is really tricky though because sometimes it can make the leap to being judgmental. And I try to avoid that always. I want people to appreciate my honesty and not be offended by it. I don’t like being judged so I try very hard not do so.

So some really honest things about me are:
I am a Christian. I practice abstinence from alcohol, sex and illegal drugs. I believe that if illegal drugs weren’t illegal, I would have no problem with people using them. But as such, they are and so in order to stay out of trouble I choose not to use them or be around people who do use them. The only alcoholic beverage I have consumed recently was a glass of wine at a friends house in Princeton, New Jersey. It was alright. I turn 21 on Wednesday and as long as I have a designated driver, I will be willing to consume alcohol. I know for a fact I am a lightweight as the small glass of wine made me very giggly. Moving on, I miss going to school. I have a thirst for knowledge that is always in need of quenching, this is a kind of odd for people my age and it tends to separate me from my peers. I know a lot about a few things and given the opportunity I will transform into Hermione Granger and eagerly spew out my knowledge. It is another unattractive quality I have as very few people like a “know it all” who refuses to do their homework for them.

Well that’s all for now, I have to get to bed. I have to work tomorrow from 9am-2pm. And I don’t want to be half alive while I am there.

Later people of tumblr!

Sammie